Thursday, April 22, 2010

Long, overdue update.

Wow, it's been a while. As always. What has been going on?

  • Dad is now in jail for his trying to run over a police officer and fleeing, etc. etc. I say good riddance. He is where he belongs. I'm not even sure how long he will be there. I was so worried about running into him now that I live in Braxton, but a judge took care of that for me.
  • Loralei supposedly had her 3rd child a few weeks ago. Another girl. I hope it eats her.
  • Russell's sister Kim is pregnant with another boy and due in August.
  • Brittany is PREGNANT AGAIN and due in November I think. Kylee is around 6 months old. She's really pretty.
  • We've booked our trip to California for October 17-25th. We're staying at the Anabella which is right beside the Convention Center for Blizzcon. Not sure what all we're going to get into this year, but we have lots of new online friends that we are excited to meet as well as some ones we met last year that we hope are going to make it again, and I definitely want to go to the beach and see Nikki!! This year I hope to get a prescription for Xanax or something for the plane ride because I had an anxiety attack on one of the planes last year. Those things SUCK! One of the planes on the way there and on the way back are only 2-seaters, so hopefully that will help.
  • I'm majorly disliking my job. Lots of stupid shit going on such as trying to not give me health insurance after was already promised it. And I'm sorry to say it because it makes me sound selfish, BUT I am worth a lot more money than what I'm getting paid right now. In other words, I'm job searching.
  • School sucks but is over in a week, and then I get 2.5 weeks break. I have a big proficiency exam that I have to take next week that I have to pass with an 85% or better in order to do clinicals. Russell thinks that I'm going to like school more and know that this job will be something that I will like whenever I get into my clinicals. He thinks I'm really going to enjoy assessing and diagnosing people, and I hope he's right. We discussed yesterday what we would have done if we had to do it all over, and he thought he would have done something in computers (which he would have been really good at), and I'm not sure about me. I definitely wouldn't have gotten two degrees before going to MS. Russell thinks I would have went into wound care nursing, and I agree that I really would have enjoyed that. If I wouldn't have wasted all this money getting my masters, then I would still do that now. Gross wounds just sounds like something I would like, lol.
  • So far the treadmill has been collecting dust. I've only used it like three times so far. I just need to get myself in gear, and I know I will use it more. I've just been really lazy in my small amount of free time that I get lately.
  • I would love to just quit working and be a stay at home wifey. I don't think I enjoyed it enough when I didn't have a job because I was going through depression and withdrawls from my meds. I miss being home every day to take care of the pups and make my Rusty lunch.
  • Dexter is still getting huge. He weighs around 48 pounds now (via Wii Fit of course). He likes to act like he's a big mean doggy when there is a "trespasser" or he thinks an animal is outside or something scares him, but he always jumps on mommy's lap for protection while he does his big boy bark and growl, lol. He's so funny. He also likes to jump in your seat while you're in the middle of sitting down because he knows he'll get attention if he's in your seat, lol. I love my puppy so much, and he makes me giggle. I don't know what I would do without him.
  • Citi still has her splint on from where she tore the ligaments in her leg. She should be able to get it off next week. As of right now, she sounds like a pirate with a peg leg when she walks down the hallway! :)
  • We had a "work party" on the mountain last Saturday and another one is scheduled for this Saturday. We got most of the horse stables built and a lot of things done on the inside of the building. I don't like having my free time taken away because I feel like I am expected to volunteer my time to help, but these are things that need done. It's also Russell and my only day "off" together, and it makes me mad that he is definitely expected to be there for work even though he is only supposed to work until 11 on the weekends. He only gets one full, real day off on Tuesdays and then half days on the weekends, so that deal kind of sucks. It's hard to tell your parents that they aren't treating you like a real employee...
Well, that's all for now. Maybe I'll update more often. Or maybe not.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

If there are almost 30 towels in your cottage, and you only have 20 people staying there, how do you manage to use all of the towels in one night (bath towels and dish rags). This is the same amount that people typically use in one week...and you used it in one night. And same with the trash bags. How did you use all the trash bags that someone would use in a week IN ONE NIGHT? Seriously? Thank you for ringing our home doorbell multiple times to let us know you needed more trash bags because you used them all IN ONE NIGHT while we were enjoying our only day off together...ish, since Russell already had to sit in the office until noon...but you wait until after that to come ring our home doorbell. Thanks. I think church ladies are the worst ever.

Am I an uber grouch? Yes.

This is going to be a terrible week.

I have to spend my whole day in Charleston Tuesday doing pap smears and who knows what else, then taking a test in the library, and probably class, too, because they like making me drive home in the dark. I hate you WVU.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

I invented post-its.

Things are about to change at work. The social worker that they hired to do the program with me has quit. No 2 week notice. Just quit. So this could be good or bad. I'm going to try to see this as good. This means that I have twice as many clients now because I'll be taking over hers as well (well, I'm assuming this...I haven't spoken to my boss, yet, but there isn't even enough clients to split the case load in two and have two full-time workers). Since I have been only getting 10-13 hours a week, I see this as a good thing. Although, when I say I have only been getting 10-13 hours per week, I mean I have only been getting paid for that much and actually working probably twice that amount. There is so much paperwork, and organizing, and mailing to do, but the job is only based on billable time right now, which means I only get paid for what I can bill the client (i.e. going to a home visit or calling them on the phone). If I'm going to take on this many clients, things are going to have to change. I'm going to request to my boss that the position be changed to a "regular" employee as in I get paid for what work I put into it. If I come into the office, I get paid for it. If I call 40 clients, and only 2 of them answer the phone, I get paid for the time I spent calling all of these clients rather than only getting paid for 15 minutes billable time. I am a busy person. I have three graduate level classes right now. I have a home, husband, 2 dogs, a cat, and goldfish to take care of. I have friends and family I would like to see. And I would like to be paid for the work that I put into something...especially since the program is around 4 months behind and everything is in disarray, and I'm not going to put it back to rights for free. Being organized takes time, and I am not willing to put my free time into it when I can go somewhere else, get paid for what work I do, and probably get paid more. Did I mention that I accepted this job for $6 less than what I was making in Morgantown. And I still don't have insurance and won't for like another 2 months? And my boss doesn't know anything about the program that she monitors? And I had no orientation and have been having to take MY FREE TIME to learn how to do my job? It really sounds like I am crazy for even staring there, BUT they need someone to help, and there are good points to this job. Maybe I should ask for my own desk, too, since there is one empty where someone left a post-it note that said "I quit".

I love post-its.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

I really thought that 2010 was going to be a good year. And so far, I would have to say that it's the same bullshit as 2009. Somehow I always manage to dig myself a hole and fall in it. I'm always so relieved to claw my way back out, but it seems like as soon as I'm standing on flat ground, I jump right back in the hole. It's exhausting. I am so far behind in my classes that I just want to quit and be done with it. I haven't figured out, yet, if it's because I'm too lazy, or I just don't give a shit. Maybe they go hand-in-hand. I have 2 tests this week that I will probably fail like I failed the last one. Not because they are hard, but because I don't do the work required to know the material to do well on the test. I need to be working on a seminar with a group, and all the group members secretly hate me because I haven't come to any of the group meetings, and so far I have not contributed at all...although our project isn't even due until May. But I'm a terrible person for spending my time doing other things. They haven't said anything like this, but I know better.

Ok, so what was written above I wrote last night, never finished it, so it never got published. I'm feeling a little better today. I know I have so much that needs to be done, and I just need to quit whining, quit sitting on my ass, and get it done. I'm not getting many hours at work, yet, my house is a disaster area (hasn't been cleaned in weeks, and you know what this means when you have shed crazy dogs who track mud and dirt inside the house and have accidents, etc), and I am so far behind in my classes. I failed my last test, and I told myself that I was not going to do that again. I have a test Tuesday and one Thursday. The one Thursday is on like 5 or 6 weeks worth of class that I haven't even listened to. The one tomorrow is on Male genitalia and rectum and some other stuff, too, lol. Which reminds me that I actually had to watch a movie last night on how to do a penile and scrotal exam....and a rectal exam....on a live model. I totally saw his butthole which made me giggle, and then I felt a little better. Why can't I just get it together?? Can someone help me GET IT TOGETHER?!

Monday, February 15, 2010

It's President's Day?

Have you ever had to pee so bad that you couldn't even make it up your driveway and into the house for the bathroom? That happened to me today. Let's start from the beginning...

I got up early, showered, dressed, and even put on makeup to go into work. I haven't been in a while because of how bad the roads have been up here on the mountain. I was so proud of myself. So I pull into the typically full work parking lot only to find that there are merely three cars in the parking lot. Then I go to the door, and of course it's locked. And why is that? Because it's president's day. Really? Yes, I really went out for nothing today. So I went and had breakfast at Shoney's to see mommy. I was there for quite a while, and mom gave me a late house warming gift which I will takes pictures of and post later (hint: it went up on my mantle). And I also bought a couple decorative things to go up on the walls (which I will also post later). And btw, I was very proud of myself for that, too, today because I put all these things up on the wall instead of setting them aside to do later. Anyway, back to the point. I had to pee before I left Shoney's, but I figured it would be fine until later, so I left.

Then I went to go get Russell's car checked at Skeeter's which was a waste of my time, and I needed to go to the bank, so I went to park, and guess what...it's president's day, the bank is not open. Well, shit. So, I went on my merry way and stopped at the animal hospital to pick up some frontline, chews, and interceptor. I had to pee there, too, but did I? No. Then I had to stop to pick up Russell some pepto, and the I was on my way home.

I was fine until I was a few miles from home, and the pee bomb hit me. I tried so hard to hold it. It was so bad that I thought I was going to pee in Russell's car seat, and then he would have been maaaaad. I needed to pick up the mail so I pulled over beside the mailbox, and I could not move. I had to pee so bad that if I moved one inch, I was going to pee in my pants and on said car seat. I finally came to a point where I could get out of the car, but I knew 100% that I would not make it up to the house to pee...so I pulled down my pants by the dumpster on the side of the road, and I peed. Do not judge me.

Oh, and btw....the mail didn't run today. Because IT'S PRESIDENT'S DAY! You think I would have gotten this by now.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Grave Secret by Charlaine Harris


Great book and series! I actually made a gasp noise out loud while reading this book. It wasn't until after I was finished that I found out that this will be the fourth and final book in the series. It does end with questions being answered, but you can always hope that something else can come out of it. But apparently, she has decided that she will not be writing any more in this series. Everyone should should read these books. Charlaine is such a great writer!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Silly faggot, dicks are for chicks!

My makeup obsession has been getting progressively worse this week. For instance, I have been browsing many makeup websites (i.e. clinique, e.l.f., sephora, etc.) and clicking on many things to buy and then not buy them! I finally made a "small" purchase today just to make myself feel better. I did not get the clinique gift with purchase, however I did buy from clinique.com. I purchased a full-sized bottle of 7 day scrub which is the bomb! I got a sample size from a free gift with purchase a while back, and I have used the whole bottle which does not happen a lot for me, so I decided it was worth the $18 to get some more.

I highly recommend this product. It really makes your skin glow, and it gets rid of all the yuckies and flakies on your face. It really makes your skin smooth, and you can use it on your hands and your lips as well! And because I bought this, I got two freebies!

First is the Super City Block Oil-Free daily face protector SPF 40 sample. This product had 5 star reviews. It not only protects your skin from the sun, but it's tinted for a slight sheer foundation type coverage, and it covers the oil on your face. I'm really excited to try this. They also have a full-sized product in SPF 25 if you need less of a coverage from the sun (which I would probably get if I bought the larger product).

Secondly is my trial size of Clinique Happy! I have wanted to get Happy for years now, but I don't know if I would like it enough to use a huge bottle (which is $40 for their smallest size), so I was happy to get this trial size to use for a while to make sure I REALLY like it before I spend that much money on a huge bottle and then not want to use the whole thing.


And no I am not against homosexuals (as per my title). I'm just watching "But I'm a Cheerleader" and I think it's funny! I looove that movie!

And I just realized that none of the stuff I am getting from clinique is actually makeup, but I'm realizing that I am having fun being more of a girl. If I could just lose some weight, I would be one hawt chic...with my cool makeup and good smellies. My goal is to be able to wear a bathing suit in public on the beach this summer (whether it be a one piece or a two piece) without wanting to stay covered up with a robe the whole time. Still trying to get Russell to decide on my treadmill!!!

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

New blog banner...looks like crap, but I made it myself, so here's to working on a better one!! :)

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Soap Box

I'm going to hop on my soap box for a while and tell you what I think. What is so wrong and scary about assisted suicide? Those who fight against this and think it is so evil have not watched someone lay there and suffer as they die. Yes, death is scary. I am one to admit that because death is one of the biggest fears that I have. So much so that once I get to thinking about it, it makes me cry and want to puke. I have stayed up many nights thinking about this. Death is fucking scary! BUT, suffering is also scary. I think if I were terminal, there were no options to save me, and I was just waiting to die a slow and painful death, I would want to be able to make my own choice whether I wanted to die slowly or die with dignity. I watched Scrubs the other day, and it was about a patient that was terminal, and the way she was going to die was awful. She would slowly become paralyzed until all she could do would be to lay there until he lungs stopped working and she suffocated. She wanted to end her life on her own terms, and I think that is a very brave thing. She had already said goodbye to everyone she loved, so why put yourself AND your family through that. Why do we allow animals the dignity of not suffering, but we do not allow people the same right. If you had witnessed someone miserable and in pain waiting to die, then you would understand. We give them morphine and every drug in order to keep them "comfortable" while they die, so why can't we allow them to go in peace. Sorry about my soap box, but I just saw a commercial for a Dr. Kevorkian movie, and it made me think. Thinking about death is so upsetting for me, but sometimes I just can't help it. There have been many times where Russell has had to talk me down or get my mind on other things because I have been on the verge of freaking out. It's been a long time since that has happened. Maybe it was the crazy pills. Ok, time to start thinking of something else.

We just watched Temple Grandin, and it was such a wonderful movie. I can't believe how amazing of a person she is. Autism is such a hard thing, and she was strong enough to break free from some of the prisons of the syndrome. I would love to meet her.

I've been thinking hard about some other things lately, too. It has been a hard process the past couple of days. It is very difficult when something that you have long feared smacks you straight in the face. It's not such a bad thing because sometimes when that happens it can steer you in the right direction and can cause the change in your life that is much needed. I'm hoping this is the case because if not, then the pain was for nothing.

In other news, we broke the bed today. And we still haven't fixed it. We'll possibly be sleeping in the guest bedroom tonight, hahaha!

Thursday, February 04, 2010

The Buzz...buzzzzzzzzzzz.

I recently bought a bunch of new products from Sephora.com, and I wanted to let you know what I think of a few of them. I recently stumbled upon a make-up brand called urban decay. I'm not sure if anyone else has ever heard of it because I don't think there are any stores in WV, but I loooooooooooove it!! It is more of an edgy kind of make-up, but they also have neutrals, so you can do either or mix and match. I actually bought a few of their products to try. I read rave reviews about their 24/7 glide-on eye pencil in zero (black), and boy were they right. It is freaking awesome!! I have never used an eyeliner like this before. It does exactly what the name implies....glides on. It's so creamy and just draws right on you without having to go over and over the same spot just to make a tiny little mark. It also smudges and blends very easy to get the look you want, but it dries within a couple minutes into a waterproof line that does not budge. I don't think I will ever use another eyeliner again!! They have a bajillion colors from zealous black (zero) to bright aquamarine (electric) to brilliant deep copper (lucky). Some of the pencils even have silver sparkles or gold glitter within the color. I want to try more colors, but for right now I just spent a lot of money on make-up so I may hold off on that. I DEFINITELY recommend this pencil, and I think everyone should go to their website and buy some now!!

Another product I bought from urban decay is their Eyeshadow Primer Potion. Just like the pencil, it is awesomeness. I have only used it once or twice so far, but it is fabulous! It makes a very nice canvas for your eyeshadow. It works well especially if you wear make-up for a long time during the day because it makes your eyeshadow stay put longer, it makes the eyeshadow a more true to form color (more vibrant), and it keeps your eyeshadow from making the little creasies that I hate so much. It swipes on creamy with an angled brush, and it dries almost instantly. I would definitely buy again if I ran out, but it's not something that I absolutely need. Notice that it also comes in a cutsie bottle! :)

I bought more goodies, but I'll review more of those later. Everything is going well for me right now. The job started off kind of frustrating. No one really wanted to train me because everyone had so much on their plate already. The company is having financial problems right now because they don't have enough money since they haven't had people working certain programs lately because of people leaving to go elsewhere. And of course...the economy (insert Twilight Zone music). AND I don't get paid for a typical hourly rate. I get paid for what they call "billable time" which means if they get paid for what I'm doing, then I get paid. Which means I could possibly be doing tons of work that I won't be paid for. Everyone keeps telling me that you have to be creative to get paid, and this is very different than what I am used to, so that has had little bells and alarms going off in my head. I haven't exactly been stressed, but frustrated and a little disappointed because I was really looking forward to this job. So since things weren't starting out the best, I told myself that I was going to stick it out for a bit, dig my nose in while I am getting paid by the hour for orientation, and see if I can figure it all out. Today was my 6th day there, and it's already getting better. I'm not working billable time, yet, until next week, BUT I'm feeling more comfortable with what I need to do. I'm really excited to be able to get out there and help people that really need it. And I know that I can get this billable nonsense worked out. Plus I have a couple family members in the program, so I can get paid to just go visit them, lol. It is really nice to feel like I'm a part of a team, and that by doing my job I actually make a difference. I didn't feel that way in the hospital because I am one of many. If I don't do the job then a hundred people will line up to take my place. This job is different. Not everyone is made to be able to do this job, and I feel proud that I am. Everyone at the office is so nice, and they accepted me from day one as part of the team. They seemed grateful that I was there to help. I'm really happy to have this job even though it doesn't pay as much as I would like. It's nice to feel like I'm contributing to our family once again. And I've enjoyed making myself look pretty for work. I've really been getting into the make-up stuff lately (which if you know me well enough, then you know I RARELY wear make-up unless it's a dressy occasion). I've been having fun playing with my new products, and I'll be doing some more personal reviews on these products soon. :)

Love,

Me.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Still no word from my job interview. I called and got a voicemail, so I left a message. It's at least common courtesy to call someone and let them know even if they did not get the job so they don't sit around thinking about it forever and a day. I have better things to think about....like my ever growing list of homework and school decisions.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Bootylicious

You know what's funny? You'd think that weighing yourself and seeing that you've gained 15 pounds in the past few months would get your ass moving to want to lose the weight. I am so uncomfortable in my body right now that I can't even stand to be naked to take a shower. I know that sounds stupid, but it makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm looking into getting a cheap treadmill, so I'm hoping that if I find and buy one, then I will be motivated to diet as well. How did food become so important to me? Why would someone choose eating whatever they want over being comfortable in your own skin? I do not have the answer to this, but I would love to hear from someone who does! Maybe this knowledge will kick start me into a healthier lifestyle. I would love to do Jenny Craig. I hear that the food is awesome, and of course it takes the thinking out of losing weight. It's so expensive, but I think it would get me used to eating healthier foods and also cutting down to the right portion size. If whatever job I get pays decent, then I just may do it for a while to get me started, then switch over to weight watchers to continue. I've done this before. I lost a lot of weight eating healthy and exercising, and then I just quit. I have no idea why, and that bothers me. I'm at the heaviest weight that I have ever been. It is ridiculous how little willpower I have when it comes to food. Chips? Of course eating that is worth being fat for...but it's not. Why can't I get that through my head?

Friday, January 08, 2010

They took our JERBS!

I finished reading "The Pact". It was a very heartbreaking book, but very good also. I definitely recommend reading it sometime. My next book will probably be school books for a while. I am determined to actually learn this semester, so I'm going to try my best to keep up and read the chapters assigned.

This snow is getting so annoying. It just keep piling up and up and up. At least we still have power this time. I can endure any amount of snow as long as I have my electric and water!

I've been offered the job at CAMC, but I would really not rather take it unless I have to. Thankfully, I just got a call today, and I have an interview on Monday morning for Mountain Cap in Sutton. The job is Right from the Start project coordinator, so I would be getting clients, and educating them on their pregnancies and infant care for the first year of life. I would also be able to help those mothers in need that do not have clothes, diapers, cribs, etc. by working with other organizations to get them what they need. It sounds like a great program, and I am excited for the interview. I don't think I'm going to get paid what I would like, but I am willing to take a pay cut to do something that I find interesting and could possibly enjoy doing.

School starts next week. I have tons of stuff going on, so hopefully I won't have any trouble getting back into the groove of things.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

10th Sookie Stackhouse!! Due May 2010.

This could be the year.

Just finished reading Sookie Stackhouse for the second time all the way through. I love those books so much. They are very important to me, and I feel like such a part of their lives when I am reading them. I cannot wait until the 10th book comes out in May. I'm expecting it to be a good one since so many questions were left unanswered in the most recent one. They have the first chapter available on Charlaine's website already, but unfortunately you cannot make predictions on this one based on the first chapter. The whole chapter is very vague, but did answer one question of mine from the end of the previous book. Since I have to wait so long for the next installment, I'll tell you about some books that I am reading now and some books that I am planning on reading.

Right now I am ready "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult. She's the author that wrote "My Sister's Keeper" which is a fantastic book. Russell bought this one for me for Christmas. It was a very thoughtful gift since he did research to find a new book that I hadn't read, but he knew I would like and appreciate. The book is about young love...a boy and a girl that grew up in houses next to each other. For some reason or another, they made a suicide pact, and the boy killed the girl so she wouldn't have to do it herself, and then he was supposed to kill himself afterward. I don't mind telling you this since this information is all on the first page. But where this is going to lead, I am not sure. So far it has kept my interest. I have a hard time reading a book if it doesn't catch my interest in the first chapter, so kudos to Mrs. Picoult for a great jumping off point.

Some other books that I'm wanting to read in the near future:

"The Time Traveler's Wife"
"Grave Secret" (another Charlaine Harris series - book 4)....I do recommend her other works!

And I know there are many others, but I am getting tired all of the sudden, so I will have to think of this more next time.

Nighty night!

Monday, December 28, 2009

2010 Goals

2010 is approaching so soon. I'm hoping this year is a better year. I usually try not to set new year goals because why would I need a new year to do something good for myself, but I'm thinking a few new goals at any time doesn't hurt you, but possibly help you in some way.

  1. I want to be healthier and feel good about my own body. I'm no longer going to say I want to lose such and such pounds because they never works out, and then I end up feeling like crap because I didn't lose that such and such pounds. I want to feel healthier and look healthier. I want to make better food choices (including portions), and I want to be more active.
  2. I want to enjoy my job (assuming I actually get one). Everyone needs to make money, but I want to like what I do to make that money. I'm tired of wishing days away.
  3. I want to be more active in the learning process. This means I want to read the things I am supposed to read for class to learn what I will need to know in the future. I want to know these things, but I am too lazy to be active about it, therefore I just float through class to make it.
  4. I also want to learn to be a better cook. It's hard being out here in the middle of nowhere where you can't just go out or order out food any time you want. Instead you have to scrounge for bologna, or cook something. I just bought a paula dean cookbook, so here is to one step in the right direction. Mmm, that's tasty ya'll! lol
Well, this just seems like a bunch of rambling to me, but oh well. I'm also actually thinking about doing a new 101 goals in 1001 days. I feel that I have changed a lot since I made those goals, and I have more things I want to do. Maybe I'll just make a new one and work on both. Who knows.


New topic. So I got a call today from CAMC for a daytime job. She is supposed to call me back soon for an interview. I know I need a job. It's so nice to have money and benefits and not worry about buying whatever you want whenever you want. I am so not good with budgeting because I haven't really had to before. But I really don't want this job. I think I want a job at a place where you are not just a blip on the radar. When you work at a hospital this big, you usually do not mean a thing, and it's hard to make good working relationships because there are so many people. It would be nice to work with the same small group of people and to seem like you actually make a difference in that place for what you do. I still don't know exactly what it is that would make me happy, but I'm hoping to find it soon. Life is too short to do something you hate everyday...even if it does mean getting a paycheck.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

JOBJOB, where art thou?

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Looking back.

What has happened to my peppy personality? Russell and I were discussing this tonight. I was posting an ad for our trailer on Craig's List, and I couldn't find pictures of the trailer, so I was looking through my old blogs in 2006 to find them. I read some of my old posts along the way, and they seemed so optimistic. I liked school. I liked my job. I posted twice as much as any other year...but about happier stuff. And things that made me laugh. And tons of pictures. It was so nice to see these pictures that I haven't seen in a while. I wanted to learn, and I talked about experiences I had - new things I had never seen before. I think this was right after the time I had lost so much weight. Is my happiness and my attitude based on how much I weight or do I just feel that much better about myself and about everything else. I guess it would be the latter.

So if this is the case, and I could feel soooooo much better losing weight, then why do I continue to eat the way I do and sit on my ass.

I have no idea.

Monday, November 09, 2009

New home?

So we are here. I need to take some new pics and update you all. The house feels more familiar now, but still not our home. It will get there slowly. I don't like the wasps in the house or the mice (which may or may not be gone now). We finally got our new stove and fridge yesterday. They are fab. We have to work on getting the water hooked up to the fridge today so we can have water and ice. Yay for crushed ice. Today, we are supposed to be getting the satellite dish hooked up, so we can feel a little more normal with tv. I'm going to the grocery store today to stock up on foods, so that will probably be the most exciting thing I do today. I need to start cracking down on the job front, but I just can't make myself do it. Anyone have a good resume they can send me to help me make my own fabulous? I would much appreciate it. Well, off to get some things done. Will post some more later.