I usually despise it when people try to get attention out of another person's loss, but I promise this is not for attention. Someone who was only a year older than me died tragically last night, and it has me scared to my bones. One second you're here, and then the next you are gone. And the scariest part is that it can happen to any of us. We may think that it will never happen to us, but it can, and it will. We could die tomorrow. It just takes one second, and we could be gone. Or someone that we love so much that we can't live without them can be gone. I've always had a big problem with death, and I've gotten pretty good at putting it away and not thinking about it, but something like this just smacks you in the face and brings it all back. I may have never been friends with him, but I hurt for him. I hurt for his young daughter. I hurt for his friends and family. The only thing I ask is that I hope he did not see it coming, and I hope there was no pain. It bothers me that we will never know why something like this happens. So many young people. And somehow I just wait for it to hit closer to home. And it makes me so sick to my stomach.

I am so not ready for this week to start. School is back (not like I had a summer free, but at least I had 2 weeks to breathe). Job sucks. I so thought that coming to this new company would solve all the job issues, but there seems to be all the same issues, and I'm wondering if they didn't just follow my "supervisor" from the old job to the new job. Possibly going to CAMC if they call with a job offer.

Clinicals went well this summer. My preceptor gave me a great evaluation. I'm hoping to learn a lot more this Fall and be able to apply myself better. I need to do a lot more self-study so I can learn the things I've been missing.

California is in less than 2 months, and I am so ready...well, other than the losing weight part. But I'm so ready for a vacation. I may still have to do class that week, but it will only be our 3rd day there, and not much going on that day. I'm just hoping there won't be a test that week, so I can just relax and enjoy my break. There will be some catching up on clinical hours that I'll have to do, but it will be totally worth it.

Puppies are doing good. Dexter was sick, but some antibiotics fixed him right up. He had a small case of kennel cough. He's so much like my own baby, and I'm so lucky to have him. He makes me laugh all the time, and he's always full of love and hugs/kisses.

I've also been lucky to find a very best friend, Adrienne. She is just so great. We like most of the same things (excluding ranch and sour cream, lol), and she wants to be with me to actually be with me and not because she wants something from me. I just wish we lived closer. She lives in Fairmont, but she's always up for taking turns to stay weekends with each other. Dexter's always depressed when they have to leave us :*(

Faith Mountain is driving us crazy. No privacy whatsoever. Will discuss this more later.

Russell just had a birthday. Big 28. He wanted grilled cheese with bacon in it for his birthday dinner! lol I got him seasons 1-7 of Penn and Teller and some other things, so we've been watching that a lot together.

Did I mention that I hate my job? Where is this magical job that I love?

Oh and I got a scholarship that will give me a stipend of $3600 per semester. I like free money.

True Blood only has 3 episodes left, and that makes me sad...however, Weeds just started on Mondays along with The Big C, so that makes me a little happy.

Think I'm getting sick. Ugh. So not good timing for this.